Friday, November 02, 2012

New beginnings in old places

It has been nearly a year since my last post, hence the title of the post. I am glad to say I do actually feel I have moved on, recovered slightly, become myself more wholly and settled greatly. The house is lovely. The village a challenge but friendly. The church small but welcoming, and the schools good. I have been living here for nearly three years now but it is a new house and a new beginning as I am now not a wife of Asher, but rather a student of theology and a lay helper in the church. I am doing a couple of courses and helping out soley in this village now. I feel God is leading and directing, but I am needing to just sort finances though I am not yet in turmoil.
Something I have experienced and am learning to reflect with and on is that in all times and in all things there is a season. I have always been someone who reflects and considers what God is revealing, but recently this is something that I am taking more seriously and deeply. Perhaps because I have been through so much I recognise I need to learn from my experiences and thoughts, emotions and reflections. I feel God is leading and directing, but I am needing to just sort finances though I am not yet in turmoil. Being a widow has opened a window into what it is like to be singe and even more a single mother. I can say there is plenty the church can and should be doing. But we are all a damaged people and not many of us are healed or supported enough to actually give out more than we need to receive. I began a new blog which is slightly different because during this period I had lost my brain... .I forget things all the time, and could not remember this site address. But I found it when preparing to read and blog for The Advent Calendar by Steven Croft again. This year as we did not do it last year or the year before due to Ashers illness and then death, this year we are going to start early and take two evenings to read one days chapter.